At my current stage is probably the most confusing, frustrating and scariest point of my life. I need to decide on what I must do in the future. It feels different from when your parents asked you when you were younger, what you wanted to be. At this point of my life I have to make a very serious decision. I know there will be a time when my parents will no longer be able to shield or protect me. I don’t like the thought of stepping into the unknown, even if I were to prepare for it, I don’t know what I want to do. What if my plan doesn’t follow, what if something in my plan changes, what if I my plan was wrong from the beginning? What if I couldn’t turn back and start over. Would I have to live up to my families’ expectations, would they be disappointed if I don’t live how they wanted me to?
I want to try though. I want to try and face the problems and overcome any difficulties. I still don’t know what I want to do in life but I think it’ll be somewhere along the lines of Arts and Design, I also want to open a business (though it may be difficult). My mother thinks I should pursue in Psychology as it is more respectable (in another words more stable and more income) and I secretly agree with her. My grades won’t make the mark though. Art and Design is big area, I need to think carefully what I actually want to do. I don’t know what will come in the future. I don’t know what to do when it does come. I do want to know though, what will I do when it comes. How far I can go in this maze, until I can find the exit. And until I find what I really want to be.
